3 Months

 

Three months have gone by and the wonderment (yes that is a word whether its in the dictionary or not) of being a mom has not passed. In fact, it grows everyday. People told me that having kids is amazing and that being a mom would be the best job I would ever have. I found myself saying the same things to a woman at a hair salon that was 6 months pregnant. I saw a baby in the store the other day that was 6 days old that I had to stop and stare at. If anything, being a mom makes me appreciate babies and kids and the whole experience even more. I wanted a baby so bad for so long and I don't know if that's why I feel the way I do but it still brings tears to my eyes when I look at my baby girl asleep in my arms. God has been so good to me.

This month has been different than the first two. Isla is starting to become her own little person. She does more than "eat, sleep, and poop". She is starting to play. She loves her little gym mat and staring at the "other" baby in the mirror. She bats at the animals hanging above her. And most of all, she is rolling over. She first rolled over when she was 2 1/2 months. That whole week she rolled over at least once a day and fought to do it. By the end of that week she was rolling over like a pro. Now I am hardly able to keep her on her back. I set her down, she rolls over, gets stuck and fusses til I roll her on her back again. But then she just rolls on her tummy and tries to roll back herself again. She is determined and I'm sure she'll be doing complete rolls around our living room before the end of January.





She also loves her swing and staring at the lights and the bears/stars as they rotate above. It is so fun for me to watch her track them and smile up at them. It reminds me just how innocent she is. She also likes to sit on my lap and stand up. She just needs me to keep her balanced and from falling over, but its her muscles propelling her up. I think we are going to be in trouble with how much she wants to move.

Monday, the 7th will be my first day at fieldwork. I have been so anxious and sleeping erratically all week just thinking about it. Luckily Alex's mom is here to watch Isla the first three weeks. But the inevitable is that she will start daycare. Either way, its so much time that I will have to spend away from her and its breaking my heart. I know it will become a new "normal" and I just have to get in the routine. But knowing that doesn't make it easier.

One more topic for this post: insurance and breast pumps lol! You may have seen my post on facebook. The first person told me it wasn't covered. The second person told me it was according to the new law. I went to pick up my new pump and they told me that my insurance told them it was 80/20 coverage and only after I met my $750 deductible. So I got the pump and will have to fight with insurance company again. What a debacle. It shouldn't be this hard and it just makes me think about all the other people out there that need medical equipment (not a breast pump) that have significant needs and have to fight with the insurance company for stuff that they should be getting according to their plan.